There were only a few snickers of, wow, "she's tall," and I guess I am..so it's not like it's an insult...

I have always hated being so tall, 5'10 leaves little room to date in high school, allows space for looking older than desired, and makes it so easy to want to do the "shrunken-shoulder-walk" - you know what I'm talking about! You see a tall girl slouching with that hump in her upper middle back and your just like, "STAND UP SISTER!!" Or, what's really bad is always being concerned about having a booger in your nose!  My mom had a code word for me growing up because I was always so paranoid, she'd say "lyd, alien on the left."  I mean, I was starting to look suspect (you know what I mean) because I would always rub my nose to check for boogers!  I mean, HELLO, people could see right up there! I was paranoid...

I remember in 9th grade, I was walking through the halls of my NEW junior high school.  Already, scared and self-concious about being a new student, I just felt over the moon when a boy came up to me and said, "So, are you a new substitute teacher?"  I couldn't even respond, I was mortified. And he was dead serious...I was 13 years old.  BOO.

I guess looking back, truly the worst of being tall all came from within - it was like - I choose to shrink down to feel more comfortable with others.  Luckily, I had a few tall friends because I played sports - but really - it SUCKED waking up everyday feeling like a gigantic, massive, huge, enormous, and big girl. :) HA.  It didn't help that I was BIG, like the opposite of skinny, like LARGE.  Big and girl were NEVER a good thing.  WHY world, WHYYYY?!  It was traumatizing to watch college sports and think, "huh, I weigh only slightly less than that lineman..or snap, I weigh more than that point guard...!!" Oh, I'm dead serious!!  I was in high school people!!

Now, for all my tall girls I am trying to embrace my tallness  - and so should you. :)  Yesterday, I went to a show and I wore 2.5 inch heels which is RIDICULOUSLY high for me, I mean I was over 6 feet tall..and with this fro I had to be like 6'2-3".  DAMNNNN.  Okay, I can't lie - my friend Rabekah who I went to the show with is also tall so that was a motivation to rock the shoes, but I'm going to embrace my tallness with everyone!  Really, I am!  Last night, there were only a few snickers of, wow, "she's tall," (and they could have been talking about my friend :) ).  BUT I guess I am tall..so it's not likeI should take it as an insult. I have decided, with every experience that I rock heels, I am going to try to remember the great feelings and hopefully change my negative tall paradigm to a postive one. 

I wish I got  better shot of the shoes, but here I am.  Tall and okay with it!  Notice where the light switch is...if that still doesn't help, go stand next to one and judge for yourself. Yeah...TALL.