I guess decisions and mistakes go hand in hand...

If you know me, you know I haver SERIOUS trouble making decisions.  I'm not sure if it's because I always want to make the right choice or if it's because I don't trust my own decisions?? 

I hate making mistakes too.  I mean, I hate disappointing people, I'd rather disappoint myself than others so I continually try to "control" situations to where I think I'll be the only one hurt if it's the wrong decision.

I guess decisions and mistakes go hand in hand...

OBVIOUSLY, I fail at this often.  I really can't control things, but I think I can.  I mean, do I think I always have the best perspective in every situation and I should control things?  I mean, logically NO.  But my behavior still shows that that's what I do! 

Anyway, having to make a big decision in the near future...and I am struggling!  Like I said, I want to make the right decision...and I don't want to jack anything up for anyone else...hmmmm

And I know...I should really be thinknig about what's best for me too.  Damn.  That's the hard part.  Especially, when I've been praying for opportunities.  It's makes you wonder.  Is this a test?!  Am I being tested?! 

Either way, I'm grateful to be in a postion to make a decision and I would never want to NOT have that privilege.  I guess I need to rethink where I put "worth" when it comes to decisions and stop thinking so much at the same time!  Is that possible?   

Shooooooooooooooooooot.  

Lyd. Lyd. Lyd. :)  Round and round I go...