Uncertainty

One of my most hated feelings is uncertainty.  I truly HATE it, as in hate like HATE hate HATE.  Sometimes I wonder about my future and the decisions I've made.  I give myself a hard time for the mistakes I've made and pray not to make them again...of course by making better more reflective choices.  BUT I continue to find uncertainty knocking at my door.  I wish it were so much easier to know what was in store for me.  Time goes by to fast to sit in a big pool of uncertainty.  I say this like I am a non-factor in my own life.  But I AM a factor in my life.  Why is it so hard?!!!!!!!!!!!!

At some point, it just is or it isn't.  Nothing can be said or changed, it just is what it is.

Today and everyday going forward, I say a prayer for a peace and ask to walk on a road where my choices lead to a more certain future.  I pray for honesty and truth from those around me (family, friends, and everyone).  I pray for a clear head and thoughtful thinking.  :)

2013 is right around the corner.  I pray it is the year of certainty...I believe it's possible through honest thoughtful choices.  Although it's hard, especially because many people are affected (even though essentially it IS an individual choice) but at some point (sorry to reiterate) it just is or it isn't.

I'm grateful for the ability to think and reflect about my life, no matter how freakin hard it is...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

wooooooooooooooooooooooo- saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa